I remember when the feelings of fear and doubt took over my soul and my life. I remembering thinking, “Is this feeling ever going away?” Weeks turned into months and then turned into years, I was afraid it would be a part of my life forever.
A devastating heartbreak compounded the fear I was already unable to explain to myself or anyone, during that time I fell so far into a black place I didn’t think I would ever feel “normal” again. I couldn’t think, eat, sleep, work or focus on a conversation that did not revolve around my sorrow. My feelings and behaviour became embarrassing for me.
I eventually had a moment of clarity and made a decision that I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired and made a decision to change. In order to do that I had to get away from all interruptions in my thoughts and the influences that continued to focus on my despair. I needed to be alone to focus on me because I was no good to anyone in this debilitating state. So I sold my home, kissed those I loved good bye and drove away telling them I would come back when I figured things out, when I got better.
I have no partner to confide in, I have been a single parent raising my 3 children alone for the most part of 30 years, very little has phased me. Being a woman and being alone driving for 17 months, over 60,000 km, I have been afraid many times mostly about where I am going and what will I do when I get there. I was never afraid of being alone, alone is what I needed to be to find the answers. How could a woman who used to take care of everyone and everything suddenly became full of so much self-doubt, fear and self-loathing just want to go to sleep forever, but sleeping was not a part of me either.
Along this self-imposed exile journey I have been able to speak only to myself and really listen to the answers. I have been able to make sense of why I fell to the floor and why the heartbreak was the catalyst for the crash of my soul.
I have written about my journey and the experiences I had along the many roads I have travelled. It continues to be the most enlightening experience of my life. I have met so many people who suffer from their own fears and self-doubts. They all say they wish they could pack it all in and start again but because of obligations it is impossible and they feel defeated most days by their fears and self doubt.
Hearing the details about my journey has inspired many people to rethink their own life, make positive changes and to set positive goals. I tell them, “Never take your eyes off the goal.”
For more information about Unfinished by Suzanne Gravelle, visit http://www.amazon.com/Unfinished-Suzanne-Gravelle/dp/192700506X and you can follow her journey on her blog – http://ontourwithsuzanne.blogspot.com.
For more information about Unfinished by Suzanne Gravelle, visit http://www.amazon.com/Unfinished-Suzanne-Gravelle/dp/192700506X and you can follow her journey on her blog – http://ontourwithsuzanne.blogspot.com.
About Unfinished
This is a true story of a woman who experienced such a profound awakening that she could no longer live the same way, the same life she was just one week before. She could no longer ignore the woman who was screaming to be set free from the ties that bind her to a life she no longer desired or recognized. The transformation to become the woman she really wanted to be has propelled her upon the most remarkable self-discovery journey of her life. She sold her home, gave up her career, kissed her children, grandchildren and friend’s good bye, got into her vehicle and just drove away…ALONE. Where was she going? 30,000km later she finds herself in the most unlikely place to try to piece her life together, trying to make sense of the constant feeling of being UNFINISHED. (To order your copy – http://www.amazon.com/Unfinished-Suzanne-Gravelle/dp/192700506X)
About Suzanne Gravelle
Suzanne Gravelle is 49 Years old and has 3 children, 2 grandchildren who live in Nova Scotia. At the time this book goes to print she is single and homeless by choice, still travelling, seeking that place of comfort she will eventually call home.
She spent most of her life living in Nova Scotia but her formidable years aged 10-25, were spent living on Vancouver Island, British Columbia. She resigned as a Real Estate Agent in Nova Scotia, to embark upon this most incredible journey, driving, exploring Canada and writing this book. To read Suzanne’s extended bio, visit http://bookpromotionservices.com/2011/11/10/suzanne-gravelle-bio/
Margay...Thank you so much for inviting me to be a part of your blog. Answering questions from strangers and friends has opened my mind to exactly what I have done, the changes I have made to improve my own life, and all the changes that have yet to happen. It show me a pictures of my self I would not have seen before. I am in Vancouver for the Holiday Season then continuing on my journey. Where am I going? I am not sure but I am sure where ever it is... it will be an adventure. Take Care and thank you again.
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